I have gone back & forth on this book. This may be close to my 5th attempt to read it. There are many good things in this book. I like the overall concept & many of his main points are right on.....but so much of the book is written with an arrogance that just gets under my skin. I guess I can't get past it. I am trying yet again so that I might gain wisdom from that which I find applicable.
Something I read today just seemed so on target with all that God is teaching me right now. "You only muddy the waters when the bottom line in discipline is your displeasure over their behavior, rather than God's displeasure with rebellion against his ordained authority." One of Tripp's main points, whether stated as such, is that we must parent intentionally. I think this has everything to do with that quote. I have found that lately I have just been letting life happen. My intentionality has been severely lacking & in that comes disciplining strictly out of displeasure over their behavior. I see how this can get completely out of hand. This places the focus on ME & MY desires. Not only does it fill me with an undue selfishness but it also takes the focus off of the Lord, whom I desire to center my life around. I want my children to know God & His character but if life is always about pleasing Mom or Dad, they will never learn how to please God. It totally goes against what I want for my children.
I so desire to parent intentionally & it will be a part of my "purpose" for 2011.
Lord, I pray that you would forgive me for making my pleasure or displeasure the basis for disciplining my children. I pray that I would focus more on how their actions line up with YOUR desire for them. I pray that I would guide them to follow YOUR will & not mine. Help me Lord to parent with intention & to teach my children how their actions do or do not glorify You. I love you Lord & I praise you for your infinite goodness! In Jesus' name, Amen.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Coincidence?
While working through my Bible study today, I was suddenly struck by what arrogant people we are. I don't even know if it is our culture or our times or our location, but what I do know is that it is disturbing. I wonder if it's even possible to regain some of the humility we should be living in after being so enveloped by a people who cling so tightly to their "rights." We are inundated with the message that we "deserve" this and are "worth more" than that.
God is the great "I AM." The Israelites deemed this name that God calls himself so sacred that they wrote it without vowels so that it couldn't be spoken. Their approach to writing the name was just as reverent: scribes bathed before writing it and afterward destroyed the writing implement. There was nothing casual about their concept of the I AM.
Were these the religious freaks who lived and breathed God and did nothing but bathe themselves in the Word day and night? Or were these simply those who believed in the Everlasting, like you and I?
Has God become so mundane to us that we have lost all reverence for Him, like that the Israelites expressed? Has He simply become the way to NOT end up in hell? Is He not so much more than that?
God is the great "I AM." The Israelites deemed this name that God calls himself so sacred that they wrote it without vowels so that it couldn't be spoken. Their approach to writing the name was just as reverent: scribes bathed before writing it and afterward destroyed the writing implement. There was nothing casual about their concept of the I AM.
Were these the religious freaks who lived and breathed God and did nothing but bathe themselves in the Word day and night? Or were these simply those who believed in the Everlasting, like you and I?
Has God become so mundane to us that we have lost all reverence for Him, like that the Israelites expressed? Has He simply become the way to NOT end up in hell? Is He not so much more than that?
Quite Laughable
As I ran through the posts of this blog, I am painfully aware of my lack of follow through. While I have always had a problem with sticking to one thing, I don't suppose I have ever had evidence so clearly laid out as I do now.
Hmmmm, let's see, how many things can I start and not even write a 2nd post on???? JEEZ! Sooooo, I mean well, I really do.
I do have good intentions, but life and "a better idea" always seem to come along!
Maybe one day I will start something and actually do it!
I suppose that knowing no one reads this blog leaves me with very little accountability.
Hmmmm, let's see, how many things can I start and not even write a 2nd post on???? JEEZ! Sooooo, I mean well, I really do.
I do have good intentions, but life and "a better idea" always seem to come along!
Maybe one day I will start something and actually do it!
I suppose that knowing no one reads this blog leaves me with very little accountability.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
God is not really good.
Lie #1
GOD IS NOT REALLY GOOD. IF HE WERE, HE WOULD......
As Nancy points out, we see this played out so clearly with Eve. We see this happen to her even before she was ever faced with the sin of others. Satan convinced her to believe that God was not really good......that if he was, he would not deny her something she really wanted. (is this not the cry of our society???.......live for your desires)
Our job is even more difficult as Christians in a fallen world. We must stand and BELIEVE that God really is good even though Satan is still as diligent in deceiving AND our lives are tainted by the sins of others. Satan's ploy is, "How could a truly good God let ______ happen?"
Something that was so profound for me were the effects of this belief. Nancy says, " Once we doubt the goodness of God, we feel justified in rejecting His will and making our own decisions about right and wrong." I am afraid this is where I stand at times. When things are not going my way, I convince myself that I am being wronged. I justify wrong actions because I feel that I am being wronged and God would never really desire that for me. Sadly, I am mistaken and am falling into the trap Satan has set to keep me from living in God's will.
The truth is that God is good. His Word says, "You are good and do good." ~Psalm 119:68.
I will stand on the TRUTH.
GOD IS NOT REALLY GOOD. IF HE WERE, HE WOULD......
As Nancy points out, we see this played out so clearly with Eve. We see this happen to her even before she was ever faced with the sin of others. Satan convinced her to believe that God was not really good......that if he was, he would not deny her something she really wanted. (is this not the cry of our society???.......live for your desires)
Our job is even more difficult as Christians in a fallen world. We must stand and BELIEVE that God really is good even though Satan is still as diligent in deceiving AND our lives are tainted by the sins of others. Satan's ploy is, "How could a truly good God let ______ happen?"
Something that was so profound for me were the effects of this belief. Nancy says, " Once we doubt the goodness of God, we feel justified in rejecting His will and making our own decisions about right and wrong." I am afraid this is where I stand at times. When things are not going my way, I convince myself that I am being wronged. I justify wrong actions because I feel that I am being wronged and God would never really desire that for me. Sadly, I am mistaken and am falling into the trap Satan has set to keep me from living in God's will.
The truth is that God is good. His Word says, "You are good and do good." ~Psalm 119:68.
I will stand on the TRUTH.
Lies Women Believe
If you have been a Christian for any length of time, you are probably familiar with this book by Nancy Leigh Demoss. It has been sitting on my shelf for some time now. I am pretty sure I have attempted to read through it twice, if not more. I haven't been successful in getting very far. As I picked it up again a few days ago and starting reading through it once more, I realized the reason for the continued failures. It is not the author and it is not the content. All of that is excellent. It was the reader. This book requires MUCH on the part of the reader and I guess I have never been willing to give it the time it deserves. As a "reader" (as opposed to someone who doesn't read regularly), I tend to want to rush through books.......read them and be done. This one does NOT allow for such an approach.
And so I am here today to tell you that I am WORKING THROUGH the book this time. I will use this blog as an outlet for me to work through the lies and stand on the Truth. Maybe as I work through the book, you too will see lies that you are believing.
And so I am here today to tell you that I am WORKING THROUGH the book this time. I will use this blog as an outlet for me to work through the lies and stand on the Truth. Maybe as I work through the book, you too will see lies that you are believing.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Working through the Parable of the Sower: Part 1
I have been reading Matthew. It is a back up plan of sorts. I fall back on it when I don't have any pressing scriptures I want to study or workbook scriptures to search through. It has been quite an adventure and I am only to chapter 17.
Since reading it last month, I feel that God has been bringing me back to a particular scripture over and over. Matthew 13. The parable of the sower. I must admit that I didn't understand this parable in previous readings so I kind of just shuffled over it. I was determined in this reading to understand the text, not just gain mileage.
Dissecting this particular scripture has brought up a handful of questions.....none of which seem to be on the light side of our spiritual walks. I do believe the implications of this passage are quite alarming for the majority of the Christians I know.
I will do my best to express the questions that have surfaced and share the "answers" I have found and update as I find others. I am just an ordinary girl, working through scripture......if some of these questions seem absurd to you, cut me some slack.......I am sure I will figure it out soon enough.
1) Aside from the seed that fell along the path, is the initial conversion of all of these "seeds" a true conversion
3) If we fail, as Christ followers to disciple new believers, are we causing them to be like the seed with no roots?
4) What is it that keeps these seeds from understanding & growing roots.....does this hint around in the area of predestination or is it more about OUR actions?
5) The way the parable is told, it seems as though we have no part in where we(the seed) will land......is this true? If so, what does that mean for us? (along the same lines as the end of the last question......is this giving us insight into the predestination debate?)
That will get us started.....I am sure there are more but those are the initial questions that came to mind.
I will continue to post on this as I work through it.
Since reading it last month, I feel that God has been bringing me back to a particular scripture over and over. Matthew 13. The parable of the sower. I must admit that I didn't understand this parable in previous readings so I kind of just shuffled over it. I was determined in this reading to understand the text, not just gain mileage.
Dissecting this particular scripture has brought up a handful of questions.....none of which seem to be on the light side of our spiritual walks. I do believe the implications of this passage are quite alarming for the majority of the Christians I know.
I will do my best to express the questions that have surfaced and share the "answers" I have found and update as I find others. I am just an ordinary girl, working through scripture......if some of these questions seem absurd to you, cut me some slack.......I am sure I will figure it out soon enough.
1) Aside from the seed that fell along the path, is the initial conversion of all of these "seeds" a true conversion
- If the answer is "yes, " do they still go to heaven even though they have fallen away?
- If that answer is "yes," how does that jive with the idea that those who know the Lord will produce fruit and desire an intimate relationship with Him?
3) If we fail, as Christ followers to disciple new believers, are we causing them to be like the seed with no roots?
4) What is it that keeps these seeds from understanding & growing roots.....does this hint around in the area of predestination or is it more about OUR actions?
5) The way the parable is told, it seems as though we have no part in where we(the seed) will land......is this true? If so, what does that mean for us? (along the same lines as the end of the last question......is this giving us insight into the predestination debate?)
That will get us started.....I am sure there are more but those are the initial questions that came to mind.
I will continue to post on this as I work through it.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Biblically Based Parenting
I have pretty much quit reading parenting books across the board. Many times they are filled with the same stuff and are rarely based solely on scripture. This one is different.
I'm on my 4th or 5th read of this book so I figured it was probably something someone else might be interested in as well..... I happened upon it while working at Mardel.
Sometimes I get so confused as to how to put all of the Bible into my parenting. This book has been a GREAT help. She uses Psalm 127:1 as a framework for her book.....starting it out with the building the foundation and ending with installing locks and an alarm system. She does this in 2-3 page chapters, each beginning with 3+ verses that she is walking you through. She usually gives a life example, What Parents Can Do section, and a prayer for you and your children. Each chapter is quick and informative......you could choose to read it through or hit by topic as you need it.
WARNING: This is not for the lukewarm Christian. The suggestions she makes many times make me think......WOW......I am going to have to work on that before I can teach my children to be that way! She is radical, straight from scripture!
As with any book, there are times when I don't completely agree with her but overall this book has been a FANTASTIC resource.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
PEACE on EARTH
Lately I have been burdened by this need to get down to the Truth and get rid of this sugar-coated Christian life I have been leading. Somehow in the 8 years that I have known the Lord, I have allowed the Christian culture to seep into my life.....a culture that is more guided by the things of this world than by the Word......by what is popular and peace-keeping rather than what may bring persecution and conflict.
In my quiet time this morning I was struck, yet again by this same need. I have been going through the book of Matthew and this morning I came across Matthew 10:34-36.....
34 "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. 36 And a person’s enemies will be those of his own household.
In my quiet time this morning I was struck, yet again by this same need. I have been going through the book of Matthew and this morning I came across Matthew 10:34-36.....
If I were to ask you, before reading this, if Christ came to bring peace on earth, what would your answer have been? Mine would have been a resounding YES. And the thoughts it would have brought about are those of everyone getting along......world peace, if you will.
But this is one of those lies our culture has taught us. We live in a peace-keeping society. We want to make everyone happy all of the time. We believe that because Christ is loving that means we are to be loving (peace-keeping).
When you take a closer look, you see that peace-keeping does not = love in the scriptures. You see that Christ did NOT come to bring peace BETWEEN men but FOR men. Christ came to bring peace to our souls, not to our society. Of course, if all people had Christ residing in their hearts, their would be world peace but scripture tells us that will not happen this side of heaven.
And from this I must take away a resolve to live in the TRUTH, to not always try to make everyone happy, and to not rely on what the Christian culture teaches me but to bathe myself in the Word so that it will reside in my heart.
But this is one of those lies our culture has taught us. We live in a peace-keeping society. We want to make everyone happy all of the time. We believe that because Christ is loving that means we are to be loving (peace-keeping).
When you take a closer look, you see that peace-keeping does not = love in the scriptures. You see that Christ did NOT come to bring peace BETWEEN men but FOR men. Christ came to bring peace to our souls, not to our society. Of course, if all people had Christ residing in their hearts, their would be world peace but scripture tells us that will not happen this side of heaven.
And from this I must take away a resolve to live in the TRUTH, to not always try to make everyone happy, and to not rely on what the Christian culture teaches me but to bathe myself in the Word so that it will reside in my heart.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Are you meek?
This is one I have IGNORED!
Meek- ˈmēk
Meek- ˈmēk
1 : enduring injury with patience and without resentment : mild
2 : deficient in spirit and courage : submissive
3 : not violent or strong : moderate
These are completely against my nature.....just not my personality......or so I have told myself. Even when I was ON FIRE for the Lord, this was one I justified away. But is this not for ALL Christians? YES!
AND, the question arises, is this a possible characteristic to take on even in the midst of a rebuke? I believe the answer to this is YES as well! In fact, I would venture to say that it very well could be even MORE important in these situations.
Interestingly enough I find that the only time the word meekness is used (in the NIV) is in the context of a rebuke. In 1 Corinthians 10:1-3 Paul writes:
2 : deficient in spirit and courage : submissive
3 : not violent or strong : moderate
These are completely against my nature.....just not my personality......or so I have told myself. Even when I was ON FIRE for the Lord, this was one I justified away. But is this not for ALL Christians? YES!
AND, the question arises, is this a possible characteristic to take on even in the midst of a rebuke? I believe the answer to this is YES as well! In fact, I would venture to say that it very well could be even MORE important in these situations.
Interestingly enough I find that the only time the word meekness is used (in the NIV) is in the context of a rebuke. In 1 Corinthians 10:1-3 Paul writes:
1By the meekness and gentleness of Christ, I appeal to you—I, Paul, who am "timid" when face to face with you, but "bold" when away! 2I beg you that when I come I may not have to be as bold as I expect to be toward some people who think that we live by the standards of this world. 3For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does.
Is there still sternness? Does he try to "make peace"? I certainly don't think gentleness and meekness = peace maker.
I will have to work on this.
Is there still sternness? Does he try to "make peace"? I certainly don't think gentleness and meekness = peace maker.
I will have to work on this.
CHANGE
Life has become quite interesting.
Back in April I went into the hospital for pre-term labor and started a blog to keep everyone updated on what was going on. After getting out of the hospital and moving on with life I had people express interest in me continuing my blog. I was surprised to say the least but obliged, thankful for the opportunity to keep record of my kiddos childhood. That way, later in life when my kiddos ask about when they were little I certainly won't be able to remember, I can point them to the blog.
All of that said, I find it quite interesting that I completely forgot I had started THIS blog in February with lofty intentions. Clearly I fell through miserably. It seems that this has been the pattern of my life for far too long. BUT, God has His ways.....does He not? There is SOMETHING he wants me to get out there. He hasn't revealed His purpose in this yet, but I am certain He will and I so desire to be in the middle of His will.
I am ready for change.
I am tired of living as a diluted Christian. I want to live for Christ. I want my life to be a life that brings glory to the Kingdom and thus far it has been an ugly picture of that. I pray that I can use this blog as an outlet to my new life. As some sort of accountability. I pray that some might find a bit of comfort and encouragement in seeing my struggle against the evil one to make a REAL and lasting CHANGE!
The title of my blog still rings true to the desire of my heart......that I am no longer to conform to the patterns of this world. (Romans 12:2) This has become increasingly difficult in a culture of professed Christians who unashamedly live like the world.
Back in April I went into the hospital for pre-term labor and started a blog to keep everyone updated on what was going on. After getting out of the hospital and moving on with life I had people express interest in me continuing my blog. I was surprised to say the least but obliged, thankful for the opportunity to keep record of my kiddos childhood. That way, later in life when my kiddos ask about when they were little I certainly won't be able to remember, I can point them to the blog.
All of that said, I find it quite interesting that I completely forgot I had started THIS blog in February with lofty intentions. Clearly I fell through miserably. It seems that this has been the pattern of my life for far too long. BUT, God has His ways.....does He not? There is SOMETHING he wants me to get out there. He hasn't revealed His purpose in this yet, but I am certain He will and I so desire to be in the middle of His will.
I am ready for change.
I am tired of living as a diluted Christian. I want to live for Christ. I want my life to be a life that brings glory to the Kingdom and thus far it has been an ugly picture of that. I pray that I can use this blog as an outlet to my new life. As some sort of accountability. I pray that some might find a bit of comfort and encouragement in seeing my struggle against the evil one to make a REAL and lasting CHANGE!
The title of my blog still rings true to the desire of my heart......that I am no longer to conform to the patterns of this world. (Romans 12:2) This has become increasingly difficult in a culture of professed Christians who unashamedly live like the world.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Reminded
I stood in awe as I went to retrieve my mail today. I am certain I looked like a mad woman to the neighbor who happened to catch a glimpse at my beaming face.
It was the white envelope and the red envelope sitting in the mailbox that captured my attention. No, I was not excited because I thought my wonderful husband had finally GOT it.....that he had thoughtfully picked out Valentine's Day cards and mailed them to me......I knew they wouldn't be from him. BUT, I knew who they were from and that was just as much a blessing to my heart if not more so.
For a LONG time now.....at least as many years as I have been married (4 1/2) I have been praying for an older, mature Christian woman to mentor me. It has been a difficult process of growing in the Lord at times because I have never had a Christian example to follow simply because I did not grow up in a Christian home. It was always heavy on my heart to find someone who could lead me to be a fantastic Christian wife and mother.
I KNEW when asking for this, that I was praying in His will and He would be faithful to answer me. But after years had passed, I was beginning to wonder. It seemed that as time passed I needed this mentor more and more and there weren't even any prospects. I kept asking myself if I had not been proactive enough in looking and so there are things I took into my own hands trying desperatly to find this someone. Thankfully God made it so that no matter how much effort I put forth on my end, He was not ready for me to find this person.
In my mailbox today it was not simply the joy of receiving mail (which I do enjoy immensly) but the idea of what those envelopes might represent in my life. Can I just say that I think the Lord may have finally opened the door for this person, this mentor, to enter into my life. I can not say this with certainty but I do have to admit that she is incredible and I would have never found her without the divine intervention of the Lord. Through a very random pairing of "prayer partners" within our preschool leadership did I find this beautiful woman of the Lord. Since that time she has been thoughtful and caring and a precious example of what the Lord desires for us to be.
Those envelopes were such a sweet reminder that the Lord of this Universe is faithful and trustworthy! Thank you for being such a good God.
It was the white envelope and the red envelope sitting in the mailbox that captured my attention. No, I was not excited because I thought my wonderful husband had finally GOT it.....that he had thoughtfully picked out Valentine's Day cards and mailed them to me......I knew they wouldn't be from him. BUT, I knew who they were from and that was just as much a blessing to my heart if not more so.
For a LONG time now.....at least as many years as I have been married (4 1/2) I have been praying for an older, mature Christian woman to mentor me. It has been a difficult process of growing in the Lord at times because I have never had a Christian example to follow simply because I did not grow up in a Christian home. It was always heavy on my heart to find someone who could lead me to be a fantastic Christian wife and mother.
I KNEW when asking for this, that I was praying in His will and He would be faithful to answer me. But after years had passed, I was beginning to wonder. It seemed that as time passed I needed this mentor more and more and there weren't even any prospects. I kept asking myself if I had not been proactive enough in looking and so there are things I took into my own hands trying desperatly to find this someone. Thankfully God made it so that no matter how much effort I put forth on my end, He was not ready for me to find this person.
In my mailbox today it was not simply the joy of receiving mail (which I do enjoy immensly) but the idea of what those envelopes might represent in my life. Can I just say that I think the Lord may have finally opened the door for this person, this mentor, to enter into my life. I can not say this with certainty but I do have to admit that she is incredible and I would have never found her without the divine intervention of the Lord. Through a very random pairing of "prayer partners" within our preschool leadership did I find this beautiful woman of the Lord. Since that time she has been thoughtful and caring and a precious example of what the Lord desires for us to be.
Those envelopes were such a sweet reminder that the Lord of this Universe is faithful and trustworthy! Thank you for being such a good God.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Totally Clueless
So, here goes one of the most awkward things I have yet to do. I feel as though the Lord has really been laying it on my heart to start a blog. The reason that is so strange is that I simply don't feel like I have anything to say and in addition to that important factor.....I am NOT a good writer. That's right folks.....I am not a good writer and I am starting a blog...hmmm.....God must have something up his sleeve.
As you may notice.....God has been whispering this in my ear now.....thus the post from a over a year ago and I have simply refused to respond with an affirmative. I honestly don't feel like I have time to start yet another project that will take up my "free" time but I am willing to follow what I feel like the Lord has laid upon my heart to see what his plans are.
I suppose my first thought is that he desires that we share what we learn spiritually. Well, he in lies a HUGE problem for me.....I don't think there is anyone out there who is interested in hearing what I am learning spiritually. This problem did not arise until getting married. It wasn't BECAUSE I got married that this problem came about, it was just a side affect of doing so....kind of like gaining weight.
When I was single, it seemed that there was always someone to hang out with and there were always ears that had a burning desire to hear what the Lord was teaching. This was a blessing for me because I always had an opportunity to share how he was filling up my cup and an opportunity to pour it out to others so that he would fill it up once again afresh and anew.
Oh, how I have seen that the things in our cup can become stagnant and gross. It's not that the Lord is not willing to refill our cups, it is that He needs somewhere to put the things he wants to give us and we must pour some of that stuff out to others for him to refill it.
Here is my opportunity to share those things.
SOOOOO.....the first thing I would love to share with you is.....GOD IS GOOD. As I have been very adamant about growing closer to Him these past few weeks, He has begun a process in me that is getting me on the right track for that spiritual growth I so desperatly need.
I would like to note that, not unlike many others I have spoken to; God gives me bits of personal wisdom in 3's. I am certain that He realizes I am too stupid to pick up on things the 1st time, so... long ago he started this wonderful process of revealing things to me in 3's.
This past week he has given me the task of "finding myself". It all started with the Bible Study we are doing for Mom's Touch called, "What Every Mom Needs." The chapter we were to do is called, "Identity." As you might be able to tell from the title, this was about how mothers have a tendancy to get wrapped up in caring for others and how important it is that we don't get lost in that and that we find out who WE are apart from all that we DO and all the titles we possess.
Second was a devotional that landed in my inbox from Proverbs 31 ministries. What was so interesting about this is that in my search for spiritual growth recently, I felt the Lord calling me to sign up for a devotional to be sent to my e-mail (the FREE and endless alternative to a devotional book.) I had been asking for some direction in my quiet time and felt that this was where the Lord was leading me. All that said; I had only done this the DAY before this particular devotional arrived in my inbox.....talk about divine timing. This devotional called, "The Real Me," by Renee Swope was about how important it is to take time to find out who we are as individuals. Ok, so this seems to be starting some sort of pattern here.
THEN, the 3rd and so far, final addition to this pattern was the marriage conference I attended this weekend. One of the sessions in this conference was aptly called, "Caring For Self," which was all about how we can't give what we don't have and the importance of taking care of oneself.
It was obvious at this point that the Lord was calling me to do some dirty work in my life.....really do a good scrubbing on my heart and get to work. He was clearly asking me to figure out who I am. I didn't even realize this needed to be done until all of this came about.
Thank you Jesus for being faithful to answer the prayers of our hearts. If I had not been seeking spiritual growth; I am certain that He would not have revealed this to me at this time!
As you may notice.....God has been whispering this in my ear now.....thus the post from a over a year ago and I have simply refused to respond with an affirmative. I honestly don't feel like I have time to start yet another project that will take up my "free" time but I am willing to follow what I feel like the Lord has laid upon my heart to see what his plans are.
I suppose my first thought is that he desires that we share what we learn spiritually. Well, he in lies a HUGE problem for me.....I don't think there is anyone out there who is interested in hearing what I am learning spiritually. This problem did not arise until getting married. It wasn't BECAUSE I got married that this problem came about, it was just a side affect of doing so....kind of like gaining weight.
When I was single, it seemed that there was always someone to hang out with and there were always ears that had a burning desire to hear what the Lord was teaching. This was a blessing for me because I always had an opportunity to share how he was filling up my cup and an opportunity to pour it out to others so that he would fill it up once again afresh and anew.
Oh, how I have seen that the things in our cup can become stagnant and gross. It's not that the Lord is not willing to refill our cups, it is that He needs somewhere to put the things he wants to give us and we must pour some of that stuff out to others for him to refill it.
Here is my opportunity to share those things.
SOOOOO.....the first thing I would love to share with you is.....GOD IS GOOD. As I have been very adamant about growing closer to Him these past few weeks, He has begun a process in me that is getting me on the right track for that spiritual growth I so desperatly need.
I would like to note that, not unlike many others I have spoken to; God gives me bits of personal wisdom in 3's. I am certain that He realizes I am too stupid to pick up on things the 1st time, so... long ago he started this wonderful process of revealing things to me in 3's.
This past week he has given me the task of "finding myself". It all started with the Bible Study we are doing for Mom's Touch called, "What Every Mom Needs." The chapter we were to do is called, "Identity." As you might be able to tell from the title, this was about how mothers have a tendancy to get wrapped up in caring for others and how important it is that we don't get lost in that and that we find out who WE are apart from all that we DO and all the titles we possess.
Second was a devotional that landed in my inbox from Proverbs 31 ministries. What was so interesting about this is that in my search for spiritual growth recently, I felt the Lord calling me to sign up for a devotional to be sent to my e-mail (the FREE and endless alternative to a devotional book.) I had been asking for some direction in my quiet time and felt that this was where the Lord was leading me. All that said; I had only done this the DAY before this particular devotional arrived in my inbox.....talk about divine timing. This devotional called, "The Real Me," by Renee Swope was about how important it is to take time to find out who we are as individuals. Ok, so this seems to be starting some sort of pattern here.
THEN, the 3rd and so far, final addition to this pattern was the marriage conference I attended this weekend. One of the sessions in this conference was aptly called, "Caring For Self," which was all about how we can't give what we don't have and the importance of taking care of oneself.
It was obvious at this point that the Lord was calling me to do some dirty work in my life.....really do a good scrubbing on my heart and get to work. He was clearly asking me to figure out who I am. I didn't even realize this needed to be done until all of this came about.
Thank you Jesus for being faithful to answer the prayers of our hearts. If I had not been seeking spiritual growth; I am certain that He would not have revealed this to me at this time!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
The beginning of deprivation!
As I do the Beth Moore Bible study on "Daniel" I am painfully aware of the the numerous choices we have in this culture....many that we were never intended to have. Yet, then I wonder if we were in fact meant to have them and to simply turn from them to show who we are truly following! This Bible study has been wonderful motivation for the "lifestyle change" that Josh and I started on Monday. I say "lifestyle change" because this is what I desire for it to be, but the truth is, we are involved in a weight loss challenge.
We both have "let ourselves go" and are ready to regain control. We have weight to lose but more than that we now have a daughter to model for.
The first day was not bad except for the splitting headache from the lack of caffeine that my body had become accustomed to getting. I don't know how good I will do eating vegetables but at least I can limit my calorie intake and workout a bit. I did both of these things on Monday so I was pretty happy with myself.
I am still struggling with "pregnant belly" so I would love to get rid of that. I took "before" pictures this morning, which turned out to be pretty depressing. I can't wait for the "after" pics!
We both have "let ourselves go" and are ready to regain control. We have weight to lose but more than that we now have a daughter to model for.
The first day was not bad except for the splitting headache from the lack of caffeine that my body had become accustomed to getting. I don't know how good I will do eating vegetables but at least I can limit my calorie intake and workout a bit. I did both of these things on Monday so I was pretty happy with myself.
I am still struggling with "pregnant belly" so I would love to get rid of that. I took "before" pictures this morning, which turned out to be pretty depressing. I can't wait for the "after" pics!
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